i cannot forgive

so many quotes about forgivenesssetting you free,allowing you to heal and find peacebut I will not forgiveI would rather drag my bitternessup a mountainand carry it in my bare, aching handsI refuse to lay it downbecause it was youwho left me damagedand brokenan insubstantial self,a door matthe weight reminds me ofwhat I had to rebuildfrom…